Destroyed w/ A Smile

:-) This is a day where i woke up and did not want to even sit up. Not because of anything else but my destroyed heart. I do not know what to do or how to fix it. I have forgiven myself and i thought that this would definitely fix the way i felt but it has not. Can some please give me some advice? What should I do to fix the way I feel? I need help but I do not want to admit it. I guess all I can do is wait and see how my life turns out.