School has Started

Today I walk into my first class with a black teacher. This may not be a big deal to many people but last year I did not have one black teacher. I'm sitting in the lecture hall before class has begin and I'm hoping that this will be a wonderful experience for me. There is a majority of blacl people in here and those will be different for me. I'm looking forward to this semester.

Something About U!

You. Well, it is hard to explain. Something about u draws me close to you and something in me pulls away. My heart says i want you, but my being has already hurt you. This may be the reason why? Something about you brightens up my day and puts a smile on my face at the very thought of you. I cannot explain it, but you feel so right to me. Waking up with you on my mind and going to sleep the same way. This I cannot change. It is natural to me. Its just something about you that touches my spirit. You complete me and thats all It is to it.

Obedience is Key

Goodmorning bloggers! This morning I picked up my Bible and decided to read it. You know that reading Gods word will strenghen you and give you all the answers you need un life. Obedience was on my mind so thats what i wanted to read about. Now i understand that i am laying not most obedient person in the world and therefore i want to better myself. I always find myself worried about my family, especially my little brothers. My brothers in my mind are very disobedient to my parents and in Deuteronomy 21: 18-21 says that if a son is disobedient that he should be stoned. I understand they will not be stoned but i know that God is not pleased. I try to find ways to talk to them and share with them. Something I have realized is that i have to commit myself to being obedient to God first before trying to help others. You learn something new everyday.

Goodmorning

Goodmorning to everyone. I am happy today and thankful that God laid me to bed and woke me up this morning. I am a new person through Jesus Christ. Now I can go through my day happy and telling others about what my amazing God has done for me. I love waking up knowing that I am special because God mademe in his own image. Though it is easy for me to get made, I will try my best to stay calm in any situation thrown my way today. By controlling myself I can ultimately control the situation. See God has blessed me to know him at an early agE. This I am happy about and am most thankful for. The are many paths I can take in this life and I choose the path he has laid out for me; because I know at theend of the path he has laid is eternal life and not condemnation. I pray that everyone else get to know the lord as I do and that they have a wonderful day.

Destroyed w/ A Smile

:-) This is a day where i woke up and did not want to even sit up. Not because of anything else but my destroyed heart. I do not know what to do or how to fix it. I have forgiven myself and i thought that this would definitely fix the way i felt but it has not. Can some please give me some advice? What should I do to fix the way I feel? I need help but I do not want to admit it. I guess all I can do is wait and see how my life turns out.

What About Love!

Love, when spoken can mean various things. Love is an intangible thing that one can give and recieve. The Lord your God said that everyone should love God, yourselves, and others. This might sound easy but you should love God even when the things you have prayed for have not been given to you. You should love yourselves even this and that person talks about you or because you have done something thts make you feel like a terrible person. You should love others even though they do not love you or have done something bad to you. If God can forgive everyone and love us, though we continue to sin knowing it is wrong, then no one should question whether or no to love God, themselves, or there neighbor. Love God because he created you and gave his only son to die on the cross for your sins. Love yourselves because according to Psalms 139:13-14 For you created my inner being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Last, love others because God first loved you and in order to practice love you should love others. God is amazing and has given everyone the ability to love and I thank him and praise him. For I am fearfully and wonderfully made!

Holding A Grudge :-(

This morning I read Esther 3:16. The Jew Mordecai had a grudge held against him and i to myself how must he feel knowing that some is holding a grudge against him. My case is different, I feel as those I'm the holding the grudge and it is against myself. I began to think, "what can I do to help forgive myself?" Well, the only possible choice was to ask God to forgive me and to giveme the ability to forgive myself. Advice to everyone, forgiveness is key and no matter how many times you have done something wrong, there is always enough room to forgive. Once you have fallen, get back up. Trust that God will help you and encourage you. In 2 Timothy 3:16-17 the scripture says, "All scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God May be thoroughly equipped for every good work." This lets me know that no matter what you are facing in life Gods word has the answers to it all and it will truely help encourage and strenghen you continue living your life.

Why?

i claimed this day that it will be us. where were u in my troubled times. no one is perfect and if u believe that u r then thats what makes u not perfect. is there a limit on mistakes? is there a limit on how many tims ones can fall and get on back up. show me, show me please. ur not doing this. its causing confusion, frustration, and pain. Why? that particular question is always the hardest to answer. pouring out my heart, my feelings is hard enough. u are dear to me yet u wanted this no more. tell me how u can actually do this to me. my questions need answers????????